Him Strikes Again

 I fall hard into an endless abyss,

I guess I just miss the darkness you brought 

When you thought that everything was golden

I was just holding on to a glimpse of the person you could be 

Should be, but never quite manifested into a proper flame,

I came and I endured storm after storm,

As dreadful tears drenched the earth that adorn my face,

Putting up with grand delusions, I've seemed to have lost my place,

Dragged down to the bottom of this pit less hell that i once called a relationship,

It tends to periodically creep up into my mind and splash images upon old conversations that cover the premises of a mind that doesn't know how to heal, so it attacks my heartstrings,

Like a dingaling that I'd love to fuck again and again,

Waging an endless war  that I'm losing on the home front,

Im stunting being happy

Over lapping my tears while feeling crappy, 

Closing my eyes so maybe, just for a split second, these memories would stop popping up like an unwanted pimple,

I used to think that this would be quite simple, 

But everytime I seem to forget what we used to be, 

You call me.